Habits are seriously hard to build. Truth be told, I wanted to scrap this post because I don’t have anything insightful to say about it.
I tried to build the habit of working out because I’d like to get healthier and be comfortable with myself. It’s a lot harder than I would have imagined. I signed up for the gym and for a personal trainer, but you still have to deal with all the real life stuff. My trainer was sick all week so I had to try not to take it personally about how I’m doomed to fail and get myself to keep working on things even when it’s difficult. I’ve been sucking at working out.
The hardest part of trying to lose weight is the mental part. The idea that you’re not supposed to change because of all the ramifications. Your family is going to judge you and your friends will complain that you used to be more fun when you went with them to McDonald’s at 1 in the morning.
I keep trying to find someone who cares enough about me to help mentor me and help me make a difference for myself. I don’t have the money to hire a life coach and I certainly don’t have the money to pay for a personal trainer I had to call 10 times before getting a response.
I’ve already been building up the habit of writing. This is the 8th week in a row so that has to count for something. The working out and eating right is just going to take longer apparently.
New goal is to workout doing something every day even if it’s only 5 minutes. It can be something simple like walking to the subway station that’s further away or running up and down the stairs in my building. I’ll check back in a month.